on letting go

how lucky i am to have something that makes saying goodbye so hard! --winnie the pooh, according to the internet

monday was my last shift at the group home. last week i asked my manager to give me no more shifts for Sept, that way i won't have to be there for the two weeks' notice that i'm giving tomorrow.

before working here i did not know i relied so much on / am so familiar with norms and instincts. before working here, i didn't know love and care is often shown through really mundane things like buying the right conditioner, or putting your finger on the heel of someone's shoe so they don't step on it when they put it on.

my first shift there i met j, and for my last shift on monday a thoughtful coworker let me work with j. about 20 minutes before my shift ended, she was smiling and dancing in the living room. i hadn't worked with her for months cause i was away for summer school and so i was surprised when someone walked by and said hey! j hasn't been dancing like this for a long time.

in heaven i'm going to ask her to teach me her perfect footwork, but in the mean time i hope she knows i loved her.

excerpt

talking with Herm about why a certain Type A person should be good at planning parties.

k: doesn't that mean you're on the ball?
h: for some things. that aren't party planning.
k: ugh!
h: very boring person.
k: and she's so SLIMY!
h: i have no comment about that.

i don't know anyone with shinier eyeballs. explain thyself

that Oswald knows

from My Utmost for His Highest, Feb 19
Drudgery is one of the finest tests to determine the genuineness of our character. Drudgery is work that is far removed from anything we think of as ideal work. It is the utterly hard, menial, tiresome, and dirty work. And when we experience it, our spirituality is instantly tested and we will know whether or not we are spiritually genuine.

John 13
“Do you understand what I have done for you?” he asked them. ¹³ “You call me ‘Teacher’ and ‘Lord,’ and rightly so, for that is what I am. ¹⁴ Now that I, your Lord and Teacher, have washed your feet, you also should wash one another’s feet. ¹⁵ I have set you an example that you should do as I have done for you. ¹⁶ Very truly I tell you, no servant is greater than his master, nor is a messenger greater than the one who sent him. ¹⁷ Now that you know these things, you will be blessed if you do them.

chopped

let's try this again!

i don't want to sound like the facebook status of a teen-raged girl anymore. i only want to make stupid puns :) so i have upped and moved my old entries. they're still findable if that's your thing, ya weirdo.